May 24, 2018


On the morning of August 29, as Greg packed up his bag and readied himself for the hour long bike ride to work, he received a meeting notice on his phone,  “Meeting at 9:30.” The rumor had been going around Nike that the reorganization of the company was finally taki...

May 16, 2018

For Mother’s Day, I locked myself in my room and cried.  

It started as a whimper but ended in sobs soaking into my pillow.

I kept it quiet.

All the while, no one knew that I was missing.

It was 3:00 in the afternoon.  The entire morning, I had felt like a caricature of my...

February 14, 2018

We try over here.

We really do.

It is ultimately a colossal mess.

Valentines made on Valentine's night, right before dinner. We renamed it "family love night" but it isn't that. We are screaming at one another. They were going to make mini heart pizzas instead we are maki...

February 1, 2018

I cleared space last night. I pushed the chairs to the perimeter, I hid the coffee tables in the twins’ bedroom, I took away unnecessary things because they didn’t need to be there, they would only get in the way. 

And so I cleared space last night. I made room for new...

January 30, 2018

On his very last day at his school, he asked me to bring fudgesicles because he knew it was the one treat everyone could eat. He had been with the same kids since kindergarten, he knew them all so well. I watched them laugh and run around, taking it all in, for me and...

January 23, 2018

Today, we were horrible parents. We leaned a little too hard on the television. So much on our to-do list that it became unavoidable and so we let them watch tv...all day. And all the guilt that comes with that, well, it came with it. Full force.

But this house, I am...

January 21, 2018

I use to wake up at 3:30 in the morning so I could be at the gym at 4:00. If it wasn't a gym day, I would sleep in until 5am and go for a run. I measured my strength by mileage and endurance and my dedication to it all. By those standards, I was just short of Wonder Wo...

December 30, 2017

Three of them are outside my bedroom door as we speak. I locked the door. I am trying to take a moment to myself, it has been really hard to do these days. I miraculously managed a cup of tea and a book and I am laying here as still as possible. Silent even as I turn a...

December 3, 2017

We have been painting closet after closet and then, another closet. Today, we were in search of instant gratification so we ripped out the carpet in the screened in porch and took down the drapery from the ceiling. 

It worked.

November 29, 2017

Yesterday, by the end of the day, I had written a song in my head with a chorus that sang "I have cold feet and it is too late." My country ballad. No going back. 

But then today happened. 

Oscar tested into the immersion school, we met new people at the local coffee s...

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